Called To…?

Today I read an article in Fullfill Magazine that inspired me to think a wee bit about this journey I am on. It sparked a couple of thoughts, ones that have been flitting in and out of my head over the past year.

What are my gifts, really? Do I feel moved to doing something in particular?

I used to think I knew what my gifts were. And then I wasn’t sure. And then I knew. And then I think I sort of trashed some of my gifts due to my over-whelming cynicism as I stated in a previous post. Now though, I think they’re coming back. There’s a couple of things I know are gifts – teaching and forming relationships with people of other cultures (the latter might not be a spiritual gift but it’s a God-given gift all the same). I’m a little bit out of practice with the first due to more recent jobs, and with the second I have in general been a bit cranky towards everyone in the last few years. But, they’re coming back, they’re there. I know that we have to work on our gifts. So I’m working on ’em. And trying to figure out some others.

I also feel moved to do something in particular. About 1,000 particular things. This is my problem. I have a bit of an entrepreneurial mindset, constantly buzzing with ideas, so it’s hard for me to focus on just one. I know I want to go back to Asia (although sometimes Africa appeals!). I know I want to do something which involves building the capacity of others. I’ve even applied to an organization where I can do just that, but they told me they are trying to hire regionally so it looks like a long shot. So I’m still looking and thinking. And trying to be patient!

It’s all part of the journey, right?


~ by Pants on 19 April, 2010.

2 Responses to “Called To…?”

  1. i’m gonna go read that article. my calling has been a struggle for me. we came here with my husband’s job and i have plenty to do just taking care of my kids, but i feel like there’s such an opportunity here and i want to do something!!

    i think the ability to forge friendships with people from different cultures is a gift – or at the very least a huge talent!!

    i don’t know where you are, but have you ever looked into your local campus and seeing if they have an international student group. we have friends who head one up in texas – they are frequently looking for volunteers to come in and help.

  2. The article is pretty short, but it made me think about this topic again, which is why I liked it. 🙂

    Good idea regarding international students – the year is almost finished but maybe they have summer stuff going on.

    I think being an expat mom can be a pretty huge task. Moving to a new country can be a pretty big adjustment on your own but when you have to make sure kids are happy and a household is running I think it makes it even tougher! If you’re feeling settled now though, I’m sure you’ll find something… I really think the important thing is that we do something which brings us joy (which is usually what happens when we put our gifts/talents to use!).

    By the way, that job I applied for is with your husband’s org in CM! I think there is no chance I’ll get it but I wish!

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